How's Your Resilience Storage Supply?

     Last fall I had the opportunity to attend a training dealing with at term I was not real familiar with. I found it fascinating, but it was not until a few weeks later that I really understood the meaning . My youngest daughter was in a Cross Country race where near the finish they had to go down a short steep hill that suddenly flattened out.  She came running past us at full speed and down that hill.  All of a sudden she went down, smacking her head on the ground and scraping up her back pretty good.  Somehow, she immediately got back up and ran to the finish line.  Everyone who watched it happen was in awe!  She could of easily just laid on the ground and nursed her wounds and no one would of thought anything of it, instead she rolled back on to her feet and finished what she started. She taught me a lesson that day about how important it is to have the ability to bounce back when faced with adversity and keep going when thing get tough.  This ability is known as "resilience". 
     Resilience is the ability to roll with the flow. When adversity, stress or traumatic events happen, you still experience the anger, grief and pain, but you are able to keep functioning.  In order to do this we need to build up our emotional health with what I am going to call our "Resilience Lamp".  An oil lamp will continue to give off light (function) as long as there is oil in the storage portion of it.  If we add to our resilience storage on a regular basis, it is there when we need it and we can still function when hard times or adversity hits.

A Few Ways to Fill your Resilience Storage

Get Your Sleep
Sleep is vital for our overall health and functioning. Getting adequate sleep helps your mood, thinking ability, productive and so much more.  Find ways to get your sleep.

Exercise
Exercise is not only good for you physically, but mentally too. Those endorphins are great mood enhancers.  Exercise is proven to boost concentration, memory, reasoning, better sleep to name a few.

Practice Gratitude
Emotional benefits of gratitude include, well being, life satisfaction, connection as well as many others. It is important to intentionally cultivate an awareness of gratitude in our everyday lives..  Keep a gratitude journal, make a habit of finding things each day that you are grateful for.  Practice saying "Thank You"  It is has been proven that the person you thank is more likely to continue it on causing a ripple effect.

Self Compassion
Show yourself some love. Give yourself the same kindness and care that you would give a good friend. 

Build a Support Team
Be social and make friends. Having people you can trust and confide in is important in building resilience. Plus the recipients of someone being sociable are more likely to engage in similar behaviors, thus spreading the social contagion and improving the mood and self esteem of all those involved.

Practice Mindfulness

Mindfulness is awareness that arises through paying attention, on purpose, in the present moment, non-judgementally, It is taking time to pause and breathe when the phone rings instead of running to answer it."- Jon Kabat-Zinn

Take time to ask yourself how you are feeling. Ponder on what it causing you to feel that way. Make adjustments if needed.
Focus on things you can control.

Provide Service
Serving others reduces stress, prevents feeling of isolation, increases confidence, ingnites passion, increases confidence and makes you happy. I guess these are the reasons that I've always come away from service gaining way more that I gave. 

Prayer

Prayer is surely the passport to spiritual power ~ Thomas S. Monson

It has been proven to give peace, sense of meaning, connection.  It has psychological effects on the body such as calming your cardiovascular system and reducing your stess. (Crystal Park PhD) Amazing things happen with prayer.

Have and Exercise Faith
“If ye have faith ye hope for things which are not seen, which are true” (Alma 32:21).  

Faith is the glue that keeps us holding on it.  It breeds abundance, gives you strength, it helps you find purpose in life and acts as a pathway to finding solutions  It has also been proven to fight stress, anxiety and fear.  One of my favorite quotes is, "Replace Fear with Faith".  Practice having faith on a regular basis. Learn how to listen and act on promptings.  

Each time we do one of these items we are adding to our resilience storage. Ready to use when we need it.  Your light will be able to keep functioning during trials. Your light will have the power needed to keep you going.

 After the race finish that day, as I was cleaning the mud off of the scrapes on my daughter’s back. I asked her how she was able to get up so quickly her response was, "I wasn't gonna let that girl that passed me when I fell beat me”. When adversity or hard times arise, just as that day of my daughter's fall we can be follow her example.  She had been practicing and doing the things she needed to do for that race. She was not only prepared physically, but mentally also. If we focus on filling our resilience storage on a daily basis, we will be prepared to be able to bounce back up because we will have emotional health reserves in the storage of our lamps.   It is time to check that resilience storage level..

xoxo

Tiffanee

*Disclosure I started this post back in the fall of 2019.  As many of my ideas it did not seem to flow so I let it be. Suddenly this past week the thoughts keep coming and perhaps it was meant to flow at this particular time.

Life and Tracks on The Trail

    One morning as I was running, I looked down and saw lots of tracks in the frozen mud and I became intrigued with figuring what type of animal each one was from. The problem was I spent too much energy looking down as I was still running and soon found myself hitting the ground.  As I picked up my pride and slowly went on my way I thought about the calamity around us right now with the COVID-19 pandemic. How it has changed our lives in just a few short weeks. Many times, I  have wished I did not have so many things on my plate, activities on my schedule or thought about what it would be like to live a little simpler life. It is not at all how I envisioned it, but POOF my wish was granted.  Now isolation, quarantined and social distancing become the words that are used to describe our lives.  

     Sure this whole thing is still scary and we need to follow the council we have been given to stop the spread of the virus, but we need to not let it consume us.  It is really hard to not join the crowd in panic when it in our faces. I have caught myself in those moments lately, hence the reason I now have a box full of flush-able wipes. Other than that panic moment, I have tried to remind myself to breathe, think realistically and most importantly keep the faith.

     After the recent earthquake in Utah, I found myself thinking about the statue of Moroni standing on top of the Salt Lake Temple with no trumpet and thought maybe this is a sign to drop the unnecessary things in our life, slow down and put extra effort in standing strong during these uncertain and as recently, literally shaky times.  It is also proof  if we stand firm and steadfast, we can be shaken and still be unmovable.  It is a time for reflection to look at who are we becoming and who will we be when we emerge from this.  

Such times invite us to look into our soul and see if we like what we see there.”

 —Elder Jeffrey R. Holland

 A few days later, I crossed that same frozen muddy trail that I had fallen down on.  I stopped to look up, enjoy the sunshine and thanked my Heavenly Father for the many blessings in my life.  Then slowly walked a short distance and took the time to notice the details in the animal tracks instead of running past them. A lot of them had become faded by bicycle tires (still pretty cool though).  

I thought of my body lying there on that frozen mud because I had been so caught up in what was going on around me. I pondered how important it is to be aware of our surrounding and what is going on around us, but to not let it bring us down. Even though we need to be cautious and careful we can find joy in life just as it is.  In due time we will be back to our busy lives, but right is the time to slow down, keep the faith, stand strong and find the good things in all of this.  Just like those tracks in the mud, I suddenly had faith that in time this pandemic will also fade. 

Stay Safe and Healthy!

XOXO

Tiffanee

 A couple of my favorite animal tracks I found.

Unload That Baggage

    One summer my middle daughter went on a backpacking trip.  She did not want to go, but her best friend talked her into going so she would not be alone. The girls would have to pack everything they would need up to camp and back out again. She felt with every step she was going to fall over and not be able to get back up. Long story short the weight did not propel her off the mountain as she predicted and she hated every minute of it. When she finished she immediately took the backpack off with the resolution she will never put it back on again. She said the weight of it almost killed her. She still to this day says it was the worst thing she has ever done in her life.  Looking this picture of  her and the back pack reminds me of how we carry emotional baggage around, only it is baggage we can't physically see.
    I know of a great group of friends that in high school car pooled to college. One day as they were walking to class, two of them decided to play a little prank on the other one. They carefully unzipped her backpack just a little and began filling it with rocks.  Adding them one at a time so that she would not notice the extra weight immediately. It wasn't until she got to class, took the backpack off and opened it up that she realized what they had done.  She later commented that she had started to fill like her backpack was getting heavier, but didn't think much of it at the time. This is how emotional baggage works, most of the time we do not realize the extra weight we are carrying until we finally take it off.
      Emotional baggage can be best be described as the hang-up's and self doubt that we carry over from our previous experience. It becomes a real detriment in our lives when we let being so scared of reliving the past that we let this baggage have power over our future. For example this happens pretty frequently when those things involve experiences from a previous relationship. It is a vicious cycle; we worry that someone will do the same things to us that a person did in the past, which enables us to not fully commit to a relationship and which makes it hard opening up to others. Any and all of these are signs of emotional baggage and all of this is based on past....so instead of getting rid of it we continue to pack it around.  These things can weigh us down and makes it seem like we are not good enough or worthy of love. The longer we cling to these ideas the more we start to believe them and it's like adding rocks to our backpack the weight keeps getting heavier.
      It is easy to let the past weigh us down and if we keep packing it around it does nothing but that..Hold us down, even if we don't notice it. I remember one time I let go of some emotional baggage I had been carrying for some time. Once I acknowledged it for what it was and that it no longer had power over me  I immediately felt like a literal weight had been lifted off of my shoulders.  It was amazing how different I felt.  Just like my friend when she noticed the rocks and took them out of her back pack it was no longer a weight or a burden I was carrying.

"Keeping baggage from the past will leave no room for happiness in the future" ~Wayne L. Misner

 With emotional baggage remember it is in the PAST and no matter how much you would like to, you CANNOT go back and change it. Figure out what baggage you are hanging on to, accept it, learn what you can from it and let it go. It is one of the best ways to lighten your emotional load.  Learn to live in the present. It will take time and effort, but will be so worth it. Just like my daughter and her backpack, unload that baggage with the resolve to never put it back on again.

xoxo

Tiffanee

Finding the Rainbow in the Storm

 

"Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass... It is learning to dance in the rain."

     It is just over 30 miles from my house to the office. In the morning it usually takes between 45 minutes to an hour and going home can be anywhere from an hour to two hours. It can be a bit disheartening at times. One of my goals this year is to streamline my morning to get out of the house quicker and to work earlier. Lately, however the morning commute can be 90 minutes plus. I adjusted my time and it still didn't help, in fact some days I would leave earlier and get there later.  It was so frustrating... on day three of this mess by the time I got to work I was practically in tears feeling that no matter how hard I tried I could not win.  I started my day totally defeated.  After my little pity party, I pondered my situation on my drive home. There was no immediate solution and quitting my job was not an option. I thought about a few days prior, I had taken a friend to a place I love to go by an ocean inlet.  As we sat on a bench that day and talked I noticed how calm the water was. It was so peaceful and serene. Suddenly, the sky turned dark as the black clouds rolled in, the waves started to rush and we felt drops of rain. At this point we were not prepared for rain and knew it was time to get to the car and fast. As we got in the car I looked over and snuggled in those storm clouds was a small rainbow. At first I was not sure that was what I was seeing so I jumped out to get a better look and sure enough it was there. By the time I took the picture is wasn't as bright as when I first noticed it.

My mind turned to that little rainbow, there had been a storm brewing around it and it still was shining. In fact it was beautiful. I realized that I needed to find my rainbow in this particular storm that I was dealing with.  I could not change the traffic situation, but I could change my attitude about dealing with it so decided I could make use of that time. I found some good uplifting podcasts, audio of things I need to study and just some fun top 30 music countdowns. I can't guarantee it will be the long term solution but, so far it is working. I feel productive, uplifted and most important not defeated each day.

     It has been said that the strength that lies within us is greater than any storm. There are all sorts of "storms" in our lives. We can choose to only see only the black clouds in the situation and be miserable or we can look for that tiny rainbow. Something to help us get through the storm.  If we find the rainbow before long we will notice the clouds less. They may still be there, but our focus will be different. The good news is storms don’t last forever. Find that rainbow, hold on tight and keep going.  You’ll come out stronger and find that tiny rainbow soon becomes bigger and brighter than ever.

“When life gives you rainy days, wear cute boots and jump in the puddles”

XOXO 

Tiffanee

All Wrapped Up in a Brown Paper Bag

     A few weeks before Christmas each year, my Grandma would show up with the back of her car filled with gifts.  These were not the usual kind of gifts with shiny paper and bows.  There would be boxes filled with brown paper bags.  One for each of us.  They were not new bags, but ones that she had recycled and usually they smelled a little funny.  However, these gifts were the highlight of Christmas, because you never knew what you were going to find in those bags.  Flea collars, demon statues, garter belts, odd sized bras, just to name a few.  One year my dad got pink leg warmers and another we each got a harmonica.  We had more fun running around the house creating music, even though none of us knew how to play and it sounded horrible.  We got more joy and priceless memories over the years from those brown paper bag gifts.

My dad opening his gift.1985

      I have been thinking about Christmas gifts and realize that there are very few gifts that were wrapped in shiny paper and beautiful bows that I even remember what was inside.  The ones I do remember aren't wrapped the usual way.  The first kick of a baby whom a few days before the doctor told me I might lose, the family sledding down the stairs party (and I believe my mom was first), the ornament off the fireplace challenge, spending Christmas Eve with my brother doing our traditional lunch and shopping.  The gift of gracious forgiveness from my mom the Christmas morning that I spilled orange juice and totally ruined the breakfast she had worked so hard on. The time my brother miraculously pulled my car out of a deep ditch with no damage and my son who drove the horrible roads in a blizzard to get us safely to our destination that Christmas. There are so many of these gifts in my memory and the common denominator is not beautiful shiny paper, but people. 

  It has been many years since I have received a gift wrapped in a brown paper bag, but the cherished lesson taught by Grandma continues to live on.  The true joy of Christmas does not come from how a gift is wrapped.  It comes from the love we have and share with one another.  The best gifts don't come wrapped in the typical "normal" fashion. Sometimes, we take something so simple and make it complex.  The magic happens when you take a step back and take the time to look at how the best gifts are wrapped.  So far this year's gifts have come wrapped in the skilled hands of a cardiologist, the quickness of a caring nurse and in the power of healing.  They have come in the form of a PA student, an RN, an Athletic Training major, a Marketing major, a straight A Sophomore and a fuzzy demanding little dog along with FaceTime, phone calls and texts with family and friends.

May your Christmas and new year be filled with the treasures of
"the brown paper bag gifts".

A very Merry Christmas from my family to yours!

XOXO

Tiffanee

 "The best gifts around any Christmas tree is the presence of 
a happy family all wrapped up in each other." ~Burton Hills

Are You Changing or Becoming Root Bound?

     Recently, on a crisp Saturday morning it took a lot of motivation, but I finally got myself out of the door and went for a run. It felt really hard and I was just trudging along, but since it was Saturday I need to get extra mileage in so I kept pushing forward.  All of a sudden, I felt pretty good, started to relax and enjoy it.  Then I realized it was because I was going gradually down hill. I felt good and I continued on down the hill, until my brain kicked in and realized I had put myself in a little dilemma in order to get home I had two options:    

1. Take the hard route back up the hill 
2. See if I could bribe my daughter to pick me up and take the little longer route down the hill to a trail head.  

 I had a decision to make.  Did I want to challenge myself and struggle or take the less painful route?  This simple issue got me thinking about something I had heard recently.   That when a plant becomes root bound and starts to deteriorate an experienced gardener will tell you it cannot just be taken out and placed in another container.  Soil needs to be shaken from the roots, straggling roots need to be pulled and clipped from the root system. Then the plant is placed in the new container and soil needs to be vigorously pushed tightly around the plant. In most cases (unless your thumb is brown like mine) the plant will then take on new life and grow.  How often do we set our own roots in the soil of life and become root bound?   We become comfortable where we are and may treat ourselves gently and not let anyone disturb the soil or trim back our root system. When things start to get uncomfortable or a bit scary we retract back to that comfort zone, even though we know it is not where we need to be for progression.  We remain root bound, stuck.  
     During the last few years of my marriage I knew it was over, we were both not healthy.  Several times I got to the point of actually saying it was over, but when the reality of what I was saying would set in I would back down and go right back to what I had known, too scared of the change that lied ahead of me. It took time but I finally realized I was never going to change if I stayed root bound. There was gonna be pain no matter what I chose, but the pain of progress would lead to change.  I still remember the night I uttered the 3 hardest words I've ever said, "I am done."  This time I was sticking to my guns. In those first few days afterwards I was numb. Little did I know that the dirt was being shaken off of my roots.  I was being prepared for what lied ahead.  It's been just over three years and my roots have been pulled, clipped, I have struggled, battled and crawled my way up many hills.  
     I've come along ways, but still have a long way to go. I still find myself retracting to my comfort zone when things get tough and a bit scary. I tend to really do this where relationships are concerned.  It has been said, that life is ever changing and in order to learn we must change too.  Don't become so stuck in your comfort zone that you become root bound.  Fact is, there is going to be pain in change, but there is great satisfaction in the progress that is being achieved.  The growth is priceless.  

         
That Saturday morning, I let the hill scare me and I chose the more comfortable option to end my run. Yes, I would of gotten more out of my work out had I taken that hill option.  It would of made me stronger.  At the moment, it was worth bribing my daughter with lunch to get her to come get me, it took the pressure off and it gave me about 3 miles of thinking time.  Change doesn't have to come in huge ways, sometimes it is the small scary steps you take to just keep moving that matter most. I went home, emailed a race director and told him I had been chicken and asked if he would change my 5k registration to the 10K and I accepted a date for that night.  
Both scary steps for me, but steps in the right direction out of my comfort zone.

XOXO
Tiffanee

Seeing Life Through a Cracked Windshield

       Recently, I felt like I had one of those "Terrible, Horrible, No Good,Very Bad Days".  It started first thing in the morning and just kept rolling with one thing after another.  It seemed the harder I tried the worse things got. I discovered leaks under my sink, I fell hard while running, sat in traffic for 2.5 hours just to name a few.  One of the incidents was a flying object on the freeway that happened to hit directly on the driver's side of my windshield.  By morning it had spread and was directly in my vision line.  It was crazy how it altered my view.  For the first few days I could lean to one side to avoid it and still see, but that did not last long.  Pretty soon when I drove all I could see was the crack. That crack became a constant reminder of the many frustrations and issues that had been weighing pretty heavily on me.

     Then one night a few days later, I get a call.  It was my almost 3 year old niece.  Her first words were "Aunt Tiff, I am sorry you got hurt. Can I see your owies?"  My mom had told my sister about my fall and my niece who over heard was seriously concerned about me.  It was the sweetest thing ever.  We had a fun conversation, she brightened my day, but more importantly was a true blessing that I needed right then.  She wasn't concerned about my windshield, valves, pipes, financial responsibilities or my other woes.  She was concerned about me and just the reminder I needed. I thought about my blessings just over a couple days. That call and the service that friends and family had provided me with; random texts of encouragement, dropping everything and rushing to assess my situation, calls just because they were thinking of me, transporting my children when I couldn't be there, rushing to the aid of my daughter who hurt her ankle, convincing me to leave the house on a Friday night, listening ears, support, hugs, smiles, pure love and acceptance. 

      As I drove to work the next morning, I looked at the crack a little differently. All of a sudden it did not seem so big or important. In the scheme of the whole windshield it was tiny. .I had been so focused on that crack that I didn't see that there was lots of good glass above and below it.  I realized I had been focusing on my problems which to me that crack represented and not all the many blessing that I had been given in just a few short days. I was truly humbled and it felt like the weight was lifted off of me. I no longer cared that I did not have water in my kitchen, sure it was an inconvenience, but I could make it work until I could get it fixed and the other things I had been fretting about were tiny and really didn't matter.  It was the people in my life that mattered.  I suddenly became more patient, more understanding. Whoever said thankfulness is happiness was correct, because I felt it that day.

     A few days later, I had water in my kitchen again thanks to good friends and a new windshield.  As I got in my car and peered out that new windshield, I marveled because the crack was no longer there and not only did I have full view of the road, but my life too. 

 I drove off  with more determination than ever to have a better attitude of gratitude and to make a better effort to serve others. That crack, however will forever be in my mind as a reminder not dwell on those "things" that really don't matter.  

My new goals each day:

XOXO

Tiffanee

This sweet beautiful girl is my hero!